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It has been a really cold day! rainy days are supposed to be blissful but the weather recently is scary. :/

but anyhow, thursdays are good days. :D

okay joakim got kicked out. yipee!

back to school tml to complete my GIS. i am super scared actually! i seemed to be clueless about this whole module. ahhhhh! i need help! i have to complete it tml anyway.

let go, let God

i know your love dispels all my fear

dear friend, your comment has made
everything worthwhile.

this is truly Your doing and not mine at all.
It is the work that God does through me that counts, not what i do for Him.

i have been placed here for a purpose.
thank You for using me when i was nothing.

may my life be pleasing unto You.
take my cup and let your will be done

GIS Lab was horrible! bleh, it felt like i was going through a computer class. i am so going to die for the rest of the lab lessons! arghhhh! and to top it off, i have horrible timetable and i am getting sick of travelling everyday.

MS tutorial wasnt that bad! i made some new friends and it was a pretty good session! HAHA. this is probably the only tutorial that i feel comfortable in! headed down to subway to buy lunch and the queue was freaking long! i stood in line for one hour just to get my food!!

headed home and the rain was pouring madly! i ran home in the rain and i was completely drenched! that was sooo not a good feeling! okay, it is time to hit the bed! i am going to study later. (:

oh by the way, new layout. :D
edit 01: ~~and i submitted the blog layout~~
i deleted the skin! i really thought it was not up to standard. but i feel better this way! :D
i am still a HAPPY PILL!

yet again, i can feel that i am going to fall sick.
i need sleep and i need to sleep soon. (:

i couldnt wake up for my first lesson today.
luckily i have afternoon lessons tml.

the first geog tutorial was horrible! hahaha. i dont know how to be open in a class where i dont know anyone. gosh, i need to be brave for my ms tutorial this wed. i am going there alone! but yes, i believe i will pull through!

as always, God goes before me.

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i am still praying.
hope and wait upon the Lord. we are moving on! (:

every ending is a new beginnning.
a brand new day, a brand new start.

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be added unto you"
Matthew 6:33

i feel free. i have not felt this way in a really long time.

the tears has stopped.
the show must go on and i will move on.

God is good all the time.

oooooh! i just submitted a new skin: CLICK

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and i am ashamed of myself for acting this way.
jeanette, you seriously have to wake up.

i need to be stronger and more assertive.
let this be a good break to reflect.
let me fix my eyes upon you.
my author and perfection.
the only one that gives me peace.

Met up with abi yesterday! i had fun catching up with her and it was good to finally get to update each other about our lives. i thank God for someone like her that i can confide in! (:

headed for greg's party after that. ooooooh! LASSAGNE!! hahha! that was what i was eyeing for the whole night! hung out with the rest of them and some of us played hearts after dinner! i love that game!! i had so much fun laughing and sabo-ing people! :D

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and right now, i am confused.
she said i should clarify things with her
i am finding it hard again!
i just want to run and i just want to hide
remind me, Lord how to love again

there is hope for the helpless
rest for the weary
love for the broken heart
there is grace and forgiveness
mercy and healing
He'll meet you wherever you are

HADY AND JOHANTHAN ARE IN!!! :D But Singapore is still blind because joakim is still in. Goo-goo-gaga girls should just stop melting over him! :/

i overslept this morning and had to rush off to school! the stupid 10 bus was 30 mins late and i ended up reaching school really late! bleh!! i hate being late for lectures. HAHA. it was a pretty boring day. Went to queensway with lynn and went for some boots shopping! i saw a damn pretty purple adidas shoes that i want to buy in the future. :D

had hotdog buns, chicken wings and ice cream with her! IKEA's food rocks big time!!!

no school tml!!

and i stand in the wonder of your love

i am going to do my part as a Singaporean to vote for Hady and Johnanthan! i believe that my votes will count! i am not considered a big fan of theirs but they are the most deserving two singers in there. And i just want to see JOAKIM get out!!!! :D

When Hady cried today, my heart went out to him!

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words dont come easy when i am talking to you.
perhaps things have changed between us.
i wish i could let go more and try to be happy for you
i guess i have to accept that things will change.

jesus, open my eyes to
the work of Your hands
let your love unfold

it is weird that i am actually starting to like school even more! i have find much joy even when i know i dont really have a lot of friends there. but it is amazing how God leads me and how God always provides in His own time.

i am learning and treasuring every moment i have in NUS. (:

i saw him today.
that made my day. (:

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if my heart has turn cold,
there your love will unfold
in my life, your will be done

it is true, i am still tired! i havent really caught up with my sleep so i am going to sleep soon again! school was tiring today! 10 am to 6 pm is madness! i spent one hour plus in the library printing notes. :(

luckily, school starts at 2 tml! HAHHA. yeah. (:

sotd, thanks everyone!
thanks kat for helping me load my screenshot! love ya.

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and i stand in awe of you
you are my God in heaven
let my words be few

for strength to face the days ahead, i am rest assured in Your arms.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LYNN! :D

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new skin : CLICK

i am super tired! i have been out the whole day and ya, it is time to hit the beds! one whole day of school tml! bleh!!! :( my foot is starting to hurt more now! if you all din know, a stupid thumbnail went inside my heel and my church friends had to pull it out! oops. (:

Cause there's something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows
You're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's nothin'
in this world I can't be
I never know what you see but there's
somethin' in the way you look at me

while God has closed many doors for me, He has indeed opened more doors than i ever expected. i thank You for all the blessings that i cannot see.

for a part of me that has died in this tremendous burden i have, i thank You for letting me find the joy and peace that comes from You alone. i thank You for avenues that you have given me to focus on seeking You.

the pain of letting go and the pain of moving on.
only You can take it away.

when the oceans rise and thunders roar
i will soar with you above the storm
Father, you are King over the storm
i will be still Know you are God

grant me a teachable heart. :D

a new layout. (:

it is now 4 am and i have just finished this new layout! oops, this was for the month of september but as usual, i could not resist. it feels good to type in such a big blogging area. woohoo!

the old cbox went bonkers thus i created a new one!!! i replied all your tags anyway. (:

cg was good tonight.

let my heartbeat be my heart's cry
let me live to serve your call

in my life, your will be done.

i am slowly beginning to understand your purpose for me right now.
indeed, you keep me going.

make no demands, make no expectations.
i humbly come.

it is amazing that i am starting to like school now! perhaps, i have built a wall around me for far too long! i am learning to breathe a little more. (:

geog lectures were pretty good! i am actually liking what i am taking this sem. (: the level 3000 geog module was a little intimidating. i was telling mindy that we will def. score low points for class participation. i am so scared when it comes to speaking up in a class of people that i hardly know. but i know time will open me up. (:

thus, the first week of school is over. it is time to start mugging. praise God.

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'complete' was on my replay mode today. it gave me new found strength.

so i lift my eyes to you Lord
in your strength will i break through Lord
touch me now, let your love fall down on me
i know your love dispels all my fears
through the storm, i will hold on Lord
and by faith i will walk on Lord
then i will see beyond my calvary one day
and i will be complete in you

i will see beyond my calvary one day.
i will be complete in you

what a day!

i could not sleep the whole of last night! omg, that was really freaky! i tried to sleep at 1 am but my mind was still active. so i ended up tossing in bed till 6 am! thus, i did not even sleep one bit at all! i woke up at 6.30 am and left for school! i ended up reaching school at 7.30 and i was one hour early. (:

the best highlight was eating subway at NUS. it is soooo freaking cheap there. (:

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sometimes i wonder what lies ahead
if only i can take a peak into the future.

let your will be done on my life.

i am off to bed.

i love rainy days! it was good waking up while it was raining outside! i am feeling better already! i have been sleeping and sleeping! (:

try left clicking! COPYRIGHTED! wooohooo! (:

i have lessons tml from 8.30 to 9.45! yipee! i am going to try the new subway at NUS! (:

jeanette is sick! YES I AM DOWN WITH A BAD FLU! gosh, you can say that first day of school wasnt that good for me. luckily, i dont have school tml so i can rest well and sleep in late.

first day of lessons were boring! my understand the universe module's lecturer has bad english! she cant seem to pronouce words properly and her english is atrocious! and the most ironic thing is that she has a PHD degree! HAHAH. but she is pretty funny to listen to.

headed back to lynn's hall to ballot for the tutorial! it was chaotic! we ended up getting our third choice! darn, my whole timetable for this sem is screwed up! i am actually going back everyday for lessons! :(

i think my nose is going to drop out soon.

till then, bye!

let my heart beat be your heart's cry
let me live to serve your call

NEW SKIN : CLICK

i am back. stayover at estelle's party was not too bad! i had fun talking with the girls and catching up on our lives. Played ' i never' with the rest of the guys till 3 pm and 12 girls slept on 4 mattresses. i was freezing the whole night because my blanket got stolen but it wasnt that bad. (:

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school is starting tml! i almost forgot about it. a new semester ahead. i am praying for a more receptive and a more open-minded ME. (:

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Dad says " i dont think it is a wise decision."

every weekend seems to be harder and harder to get by. but i thank God for sustaining me thus far. As painful as it can be sometimes, i thank God for strength and giving me peace.

decisions that i have made. decisions to be made. i have a lot to prove and i have a lot to learn. (:

i humbly come.

Lord, we want to thank you for the
works you've done in our lives
and Lord, we trust in your unfailing love
for you alone are God eternal
throughout earth and heaven above

When I said, "My foot is slipping,"
your love, O LORD, supported me.
When anxiety was great within me,
your consolation brought joy to my soul
But the LORD has become my fortress,
and my God the rock in whom I take refuge.
- Psalm 94:18-22

the objection, the misunderstanding, the underlying pain.
perhaps no one would ever understand.
but i have lifted my burdens to you.
i move on and press on.

I can only lie still in God's arms like a child and trust.

after listening to micheal buble's home for over a hundred times, i am officially sick of that song! so ya, changing layout and this will def. last till the end of the month! (:

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dinner at cartel with peetard yesterday! lynn couldnt make it so ya, it was the two of us! (: we realised something! we cant take pictures with our faces straight! it has to be tilted if not, we dont feel comfortable! omg, we are super weird people! but we ended up laughing because of this!

so to save you the agony of seeing our uncomfortable straight faces shots. this was one of the better shots of the night.

i cant believe friday is here! this week has gone past so fast! i got my universe module so i am all set to start school! (: bleh, tutorial balloting on monday! give me one reason why i should like the CORS system! HAHA.

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i know i am dreading alot of things! perhaps i dont have the heart to go through it again. but i hope, i wait and i have faith.

the city has been prepared.

another summer day has come and gone away
in Paris and Rome and i want to go home

this is probably the most simple skin i have ever done! well, i did not want to change it because i still like my previous one. But i cant seem to get micheal buble's home song out of my head. Probably because jeff and i listened to this song over and over again at sue's house yesterday.

so, i will change back to the other one once i get sick of this. i think i have an obsession for pretty flowers. (:

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national day celebration with the KEYS was fun! we ordered macs and pigged out in front of the TV.

gosh, bidding is horrible! i wish someone could just bomb the CORS system! i am praying real hard that i get my last module! :p

i just got home from sue's house! last night was pretty fun! we had buffet dinner at tanah merah country club! we ate till we nearly died! Haha. but everyone was dressed in red so that was a really pretty sight.

stayed over at sue's house where we watched high school musical again! omg, i simply love the show! actually, i like the songs more than the typical cliche love story. Fell asleep and woke up this morning to watch life as we know it and one tree hill! WOOHOOO [:

out with the KEYs later! going to celebrate national day in style!

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Matt 6:33

perhaps expectations pulls us down.
perhaps no one expects us to be able to handle it.
it is not about proving to people that we are capable.
we are only accountable to God.
one team, one for God.
let your will be done

i wont be coming back tonight.

so going back to PL was nostalgic. I miss the fellowships with my friends and training partners! i had so much fun catching up with everyone today! :DDDD yes, PL has given me the best education years of my life!

till then, more updates tml!
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY, EVERYONE!!!!! (:

NEW SKIN: CLICK

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the 'mighty to save' song is in my head now!

it is going to be a busy this week! in fact, i got a feeling that it will be over before i know it. what a way to end off the holidays before school starts. i am ever ready!!

I will be going back to PL tml! Mr Kim is retiring. Gosh, i wonder how the PL Juniors are going to survive. As weird as he can be, he is a really good coach. If it wasnt for him, there wont be us. I wouldnt be playing badminton at all. What a scary thought. :p

ooooh! I cant wait for national day dinner with the cg people. (: we are all wearing red. HAHAHAH!

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He never sleeps, He never slumbers
when we are weak, he becomes stronger
so rest in His love and cast all our fears on Him

it has been two busy nights of FOP. it was great and God has impressed alot in my heart. My problems seem nothing right now because i want to thank Him for all the blessings that i cannot see.

Having Faith in the revelation of the future. Let me learn to walk with peace and joy in my heart everyday of my life. The fear of my Lord should be more than the fear of my expectations.

take the road. lets go.

my god is mighty to save.

the memory of your past was to forget 'us' and my memory of my past is to forget the pain of letting go. it is amazing how i stood on the escalator of plaza sing praying a simple prayer of letting Him take control and the message came clear tonight.

for that, i am thankful. the journey is never easy but i am learning a little at a day. For God is mighty to save. i have faith in that revelation of the future.

i went out with clara today for movie and shopping! going out with her can be sooooo irritating! hahaha. at the rate she is punching me, i think i am going to get lots of blue blacks soon! but i had lots of FUN! (: i know you are reading this : better find more time for me when school starts!

ooooh! willy wonka nerds rope ROCKS!

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why there? i still dont get it! of all places, it had to be that place. maybe that is why my heart is not settled. maybe that is why i am finding it harder to let go.

i dont know where your journey will go
but i will be watching every beat of your heart.

i love wednesdays! i bidded for malay studies and cities in transition yesterday and i got both modules. darn it, malay studies 's lowest successful bid was 799! OMG OMG OMG! my points are all gone right now. but at least, lynn and i are taking the same module then.

one more module to bid. that one is the crucial one. i scared my points will not be enough! if i dont get it, i am so dead! i will be left with all the lousy modules. darn!

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SOTD! thank you everyone. (:

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everything works at the whisper of your call
i will delight in your ways
not my will but yours be done.

i have been tagged again by kat. (:

5 years ago I was: 15! sec three back in PL.

5 snacks I enjoy:
1.hersheys chocolate
2.calbee hot & spicy
3.old chang kee's sotong ball
4. yakitori
5. polka honey green tea!!!!!

5 songs I know all the words to:
- all the songs that i know by heart are christian songs. too many to name. test me if u dare. (:

5 things I would do with 100 million dollars:
1. pay for my car
2. set up a bakery store.
3. buy a CLK! OMG, MY DREAM CAR!
4. donate to charity
5. buy a grand piano

5 places I would run away to:
1. america
2. my room
3. church
4. taiwan
5. neverland. ( if it exists..)

5 things I would never wear:
1. tapered pants
2. high waist pants
3. polka dots clothings
4. 3/4 jean skirts. ( eeeeew!)
5. anything that doesnt appeal to me.

5 bad habits:
1. i dont pack my bed.
2. opening my mouth slightly while watching tv.
3. twirling my hair
4. shaking my legs when i am bored
5. tv junkie
( THIS IS FREAKING EMBARRASSING! )

5 biggest joys:
1. God
2. family
3. friends
4. * this slot is a secret. i know who can already.
5. computer

5 fictional characters I would date:
1. captain jack sparrow!
2. nick from csi las vegas
3. lucas from one tree hill
4. dino from life as we know it
5. ernest from the importance of being ernest

5 people to do this quiz :
1. eindra
2. anne
3. ruimin
4. samantha (airwaves)
5. samantha quek!

NEW SKIN - CLICK

a new layout for this month.
threadless is the love.

making new layouts make me happy. i dont know why but i like how it keeps my mind occupied. (:

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every ending is a new beginning.
a brand new day is a hope for a new beginning.

oceans will part
nations come
at the whisper of your call
hope will rise, glory shown
in my life your will be done.